I have taken a little hiatus from the blogging train and I’m sorry bout that. Life is still crazy and I feel like I haven’t had time to breathe for the past month or so. (Minus our babymoon in the caribbean of course…) I am less than a month away from leaving my job and it’s all starting to get really real and my brain is starting to melt from my growing list of to-dos and my body is starting to feel the pains of being very pregnant and I get home in the evening and just want to go to bed and never have to get up.
But today I am going to try and push all of the aches and pain and mental anxiety away for a bit and write about something that brings me such great peace. I’ve been reading the daily devotions from Blessed Is She for several months now, and I love it! I love opening my email every morning and daily readings from Mass and then a devotional written by one of their amazing writers, and now they have started the #BISsisterhood link-up! Every Thursday there is a different theme, and this week’s is Eucharist, and since this is something that brought me to the Catholic faith I thought I’d take a break from my hiatus…
The idea that the Eucharist is Christ was such an eye-opener to me when I first started looking into Catholicism. At first I was like, this is so weird how could you believe that, it’s just so weird. But then I took at step back a little and decided to look at it all with an open mind, keeping in mind that it could very well be that it is weird. Once I took that perspective, it was like someone turned on the light. I now couldn’t understand how you could think that He wasn’t present in the bread and wine. It no loner made sense that it would just be symbolic, but I couldn’t explain it any more than I knew He was there. I knew it. He is in that peace that falls over me when I walk into the Sanctuary or into the Adoration chapel during Exposition. He is there when I received the Eucharist, when the tears inexplicably start to fall as I walk back to my seat.
It is so amazing how the Spirit can open you eyes so that you can see what’s right in front of you. I can have so many things going through my mind but in that moment of the Mass I somehow become completely focused on Him. I longed for a year to be able to fully partake in communion. Every Mass my heart would be heavy when I sat in my pew watching every one else line up to receive, I ached to join them. Now that I can I feel a joy and a surreal lightness in me every time I do, and it is simply magical.
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