Yesterday I found myself struggling with a feeling that at first I couldn’t put a name to. I just felt empty, and like there was something missing… or maybe I was just bored? I talked to D about it a little after he got home from work, and again this morning, but I couldn’t explain it. I just knew that I needed something to be different, or better or something.
But this morning at church something clicked during the sermon. The sermon was about how to share your faith with others, so that others may come to know and follow Christ. This is not something that I am good at, and it is something that kinda scares me so I tend to try and turn the conversation away from that subject. And while I did not agree with everything that was said in the sermon, I felt my heart open.
Part of our purpose as Christians is to bring glory to God, but it is also to share Christ with others. But in order to do the latter, we need to first focus on the former. We need to live our faith in order to have credence in sharing it to those who do not know him. Someone once said to me, “I received Christ as my Savior a few years ago, but only in the last few months have I allowed him to become my Lord as well”, and only recently have I found myself thinking about what that means.
I think the emptiness that I have been feeling has been me ignoring God. I have kept up my routine of reading my Bible every morning, but to be honest I have been just going through the motions instead of really reading the words, I just sort of read them in order to check the figurative box. And I have been slacking (for lack of a better word) on my quiet time with God and praying.
Today was a wake up call.