The first goal I set for myself for 2013 was to follow the website She Reads Truth (SRT), which is a website that brings women together to read the Bible every day. And I love it!
SRT brings more direction to my Bible reading, especially now while I’m trying to find a new church. Right now the Bible plan is taking us through the Psalms written to be sung on the days leading up to Passover, and they have been hitting me hard. But I love it!!
At the same time though, it’s been hitting me even more personally. I’ve been feeling very lost since we moved from Virginia. I miss the continuity of my small group and church, and I miss having people to talk to freely face to face about my beliefs and questions that I have. At times I wish that I belonged to a denomination that made it possible for me to walk into any church and “fit in”, but I didn’t realize that that’s what I was thinking until today when I read a comment on SRT. A woman wrote that she was very blessed to be Catholic because it meant that even when she was traveling she could walk into any Catholic church and know exactly how mass would be.
I know that as a Christian, I can do that in a sense. At Catholic mass they are worshipping Jesus, just as they do at any Baptist church, but the few churches I’ve tried near our new home just don’t click. I got a recommendation from a girl in my old small group, but it’s a 45-minute drive one-way and that’s just so intimidating right now. It’s made more frustrating because I don’t know anyone that lives in my area to ask for more help. I work a 40-minute drive from home and most people I work with live in Virginia.
But at the end of the day, I keep praying that God will guide my feet to a new spiritual home. Until then, I will keep praying and using SRT as a path into God’s Word.