In case you haven’t noticed I fell off the Write 31 Days bandwagon. Hard. I made it to Day 13. I could come up with a million excuses, but really what it comes down to is that life got in the way, and right now life is a priority over my blog. Sorry dear readers.
It’s not that I don’t want to write, but I seem to have a million things that need doing instead. But it’s not fair to neglect this part of me, so I’m going to just focus on writing when I feel the need to. I’m a little sad I’m not finishing my prayer series, and maybe I will, but I don’t feel like I failed. I got a lot out of writing the prayers that I did.
Right now a lot of my life, perhaps understandably, revolved around a certain four month-old who has recently learned to blow bubbles, make race car noises (brrrrrrr), and is sadly sick for the first time. I wrote once about how hard motherhood has been for me, and I labeled that post as a “mini rant”. But that’s not fair to me. It wasn’t a rant. It was me being completely honest and open, and not filtering and just saying “I’m okay” or “Everything’s going great” and not meaning it.
But today, I can honestly say, I’m fine. I am not awesome, but things are good. SB and I went for a walk after a little extra snoozing this morning. She mostly slept, and I caught up on a few episodes of the Visitation Project (if you haven’t checked it out you should!), and I realized that overall I am feeling a whole lot better about being a mom.
I finished reading “Bringing Up Bebe“, and the author makes a really good point somewhere in the middle of it about letting babies be babies. She’s comparing French parents to American parents (as a generalization) when it comes to a child’s milestones. French parents assume it will happen, and only worry when it is very late in coming. But American parents want to know how they can speed it all up. They don’t want to wait for their child to walk, what can I do now so my child can walk sooner?
And what do I think about all this? Just let the babies be babies!
I’ve been trying to be conscious about what activities I do with SB now. We still do tummy time, I still talk to her, and I still help her sit up and show her how to roll over. But she will roll over on her own when she’s ready. I don’t need to push her. She will talk when she’s ready. She will not wake up for a mid-night feeding when she’s ready. I don’t need to make my baby no longer be a baby. She will grow up before I want her to anyway. She already is.
And with that I will leave you with a memory from our walk. Even after she fell asleep in her carrier she still held on to my arm. Don’t ever grow up baby.