This #SheSharesTruth post is one of testimony and sharing of great commission moments. For me this was a very difficult post to write, and I struggled with posting it. I went back and forth several times about whether or not I should post it, but in the end… well here it is:
Most of my Great Commission moments have involved my husband. D believes there is a God and that Jesus was a good man who taught peace and love, but he does not believe that Jesus was the Son of God or that he is our Savior. Admittedly this makes me sad, but I love him, and he is super awesome so I don’t feel that it is an issue in our relationship or in our marriage.
But it is something that I feel God has nudged me about. My Great Commission moments have been small and brief, just a sentence or two. I don’t think before I gave him this post to approve that D even remembered them. (Since it is personal and about him I thought that it was only fair that he give his blessing on me sharing it with the world.)
I feel awkward sharing my faith with D because I feel like it is a fine line between me sharing, and him feeling like I am trying to force him to believe something. So when he asks me questions about what I believe, I (sadly) keep my answers short. But one night, after he had asked me a question and I didn’t really answer, a voice inside my head said, ‘he’s asking you, you should tell him’. I don’t remember what the question was, but for me that was the moment when God loosened my tongue, and opened my eyes to what was before me.
About a month ago during a Skype date, D mentioned that he was reading the Bible, starting with Genesis and seeing how far he got. He was partway through Genesis, and I asked him what he thought so far. “God lied.” My heart jumped… “What? Why do you think that?”
“Well God said that if Adam or Eve ate from the tree they would die. But they didn’t die, so God lied.”
I relaxed a little, since logically yes, I guess you could interpret it that way. But that’s not the Truth. I explained to D, looking through the New Testament to find the verses I needed, that God did not lie. Adam and Eve did die, in that they sinned. By sinning, eating the forbidden fruit, they had in fact died because they were now separated from God. I explained that that was why we needed Jesus, so he could die and take away our death in sin.
For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. – Romans 6:23
It warmed my heart to be able to share this Truth with him because to me the love and sacrifice of Christ is such a beautiful and freeing truth! It was the first time that I didn’t feel awkward or weird sharing this with him, instead it felt amazing. I felt like I needed to share this, I needed to tell him that God wasn’t a liar. I don’t know if he believed me, but I wasn’t telling him just so he would believe me, I was telling him to show him what I believe.
I feel better now about sharing my faith with D, I hope and pray that one day he too will chose Jesus as his Savior, but I know that ultimately that is in God’s hands. I know that God wants me to continue to share his Word and Truth, and I no longer feel weird about it.