I have a conundrum. I have been working towards my Masters for a while, but admittedly I am not in love with it. I started because I needed something to list on my annual performance report at work. Self-improvement is required and education is a relatively easy check in the box. So I picked a program that sounded interesting, because no program sounded AWESOME, but I found something I thought I would like. I am now four classes down (almost five, I’m in a class now) and will have 7 left after I finish my current course.
But almost every class I take brings up the internal debate of if I should bother to keep going. Part of that debate is probably stress induced, because it always seems to come up in the midst of me writing a paper, but I think part of it is because I am honestly unsure of what to do. Let me break it down to how I see it.
Pros and cons to completing my Masters:
+ Mandatory better pay if I become a Federal employee (which is looking very likely)
+ I can say I have my Masters! It is definitely an accomplishment
+ I am learning, it’s not a trade skill but it knowledge. (And we all know that knowledge is power.)
– I still have 7 classes left, including writing a thesis
– I have NO idea what to write my thesis on
– $$$ (my job pays for most of the costs, but I still have to pay out of pocket)
I’m also afraid to fail, by not completing my degree, but I sometimes I feel as though I am wasting my time. I don’t know if these count as a pro or con, but it is definitely on my mind. I go back and forth between continuing and quitting almost in the same breath. So for now I just keep going because the idea of quitting makes me feel wretched. But what are your thoughts, my lovely readers?
Have you ever done something that you were unsure about? What was the outcome?