I’ve been stuck in a funk for about the last two weeks. I don’t really know why, but I don’t think the whole mess that work has been, or hormones have helped any.
I’ve kinda sorta gotten back into working out trying to get out of it, but it hasn’t been going well. I’m still having a lot of trouble concentrating, and it didn’t help when today with about 1k left of my 4k, I felt as though my stomach was tied in a double knot. Ugh. But on the weight lifting front at least I’ve made some improvement, I’ve increased the weight I lift on all my lifts so that’s gotta mean something right? I only got through half of my abs routine before I had to stop. Partly because my stomach still hurt (my stomach, not my abs) and partly because doing sit-ups was only increasing the pain of the raw spot of skin on my tailbone from erging.
I just can’t win.
SO! In defiance of this funk, and in trying to motivate myself, I signed up for a half marathon. It’s in Williamsburg VA, and I had signed up for it last year but was unable to run it because of work. But this year I am definitely going to do it!!! My goal is to run it in less than 2 hours, so faster than a 9:10 mile pace. I know I can do that, it’s going to take some work, but it’s definitely doable. There is a loop around base here that’s 7.5 or 8 miles, so my goal is to start running that at least once a week before I leave.
I’ve also started reading the Bible daily, as both a meditation but also to become more familiar with it. I am currently reading the Gospel of John, and I only read two chapters a day but I’ve been journaling my thoughts on it and picking out verses that I like or that stick out. It’s been helping. I usually do it right after work, because I have yet to manage to get up prior to 15 minutes before work.
Going to church has helped too, though I didn’t go this past Sunday because I completely forgot and didn’t remember til it was too late. But there are two chaplains who rotate, so it’s a different style every week which I like.
And I’ve been talking to David about this stuff too, which is kinda crazy. When we dated he thought I was crazy for believing that God exists forget thinking Jesus was His Son. But he’s found God, and has completely done a 180 which is interesting to see. We’ve had some heated discussions, but for the most part it’s just interesting to see with how much fervor he’s thrown himself into his relationship with God.
So life’s had it’s ups and downs lately, but I’m trying to be positive and optimistic about it. This next week is going to be interesting…